I had a bad dream. X( X( X(

I was in this party or something, and people from work were in there I think.  And I finally left to go get in my current SUV and Tom was looking for it down another isle but I'd thought to hit the button on my key fob and it lit up.  So I went to go get in it and these 2 guys from where I was just standing said how messed up the car is, and I tried to get in it but couldn't unlock it fast enough.  Then they were like, hey, it's not messed up it's just dirty.  So one grabbed me.

All of a sudden I'm in Mamma's house again, but with one of the guys.  He's waiting for something.  He watches me mess with the alarm, and I hit the 3 buttons all at once to set it off but it doesn't go off.  He asks what I'm doing and I say I'm just messin'.  I notice it's hooked to a telephone.  He said "As long as you don't..." about the time I barely lift the receiver and dial 911.  "...do that.  You failed that test."  Then he slowly and deliberately pulls the phone plug out and tells me to go do something else.  I find the circuit board to the alarm and remember that Debbie (now owns Mammas house) wasn't paying for monitoring of the alarm, but I think that somehow I could still set it off and the neighbors would do something.  I remember how badly the alarm hurts when it goes off (insta-migraine) but still need to set it off, and know he doesn't have the code to reset it.

I'm sitting on a loveseat by the front windows and they're open.  I try screaming but he just looks at me like he's annoyed.  I try screaming again and nothing happens.  No one comes out or anything.

Then there are puffer fish on the floor and the floor is tile and wet.  He starts this huge garbage disposal on the floor and some of the fish get cinematically blended to show me what would happen.  And I'm hanging on (to nothing) for dear life trying not to get sucked in.  And he says after (he gets something? he's waiting for something) he's going to fill this entire room up and I'm going to drown in this pool.  (Backstory, I swam in my really cold pool yesterday, but didn't feel like drowing or anything.)

I realize I have a bluetooth headset on that he didn't nab when he nabbed my phone.  He's sitting at the end of Mamma's table (not where she used to sit) and I'm over where the tv is.  He's talking about there's an uproar on myspace because they've noticed me missing.  I'm like "huh... why would they have an uproar on myspace?"  And I'm messing with my bluetooth headset.  Only I hit the button and I can hear music really loud in my ear, and I'm not sure if he can hear it or not but I can barely hear him.  I get worried that he's said something I've not responded to and I'm trying to work the bluetooth because aparently it's new and I don't know how.  I finally figure out that if I pull downwards on the little button (like brush my fingers downwards like on an ipod) then it turns the music down, but not all the way.  (I think he was toying with me and he knew what I was doing but it didn't matter 'cause he'd done something to my phone.)  I'd thought I heard something on it before I started messing with it, but then there was just the music when I turned it up.

I was by the door thinking of what I could do next when I realized the door was open.  There were no cops there.  I started doing that breathing that you get when you've cried too much - the almost hiccup breathing where you take a breath but can't do so without 5 or so hitches in your breath.  I realize that if I'm doing that, I'm going to cry.  (In real-life whenever I do that without having something to cry about - just a random hitch or two, then usually later on in the day something happens and I cry.)  I think about what it'd be like to "be able" to say I've been held hostage.  And I didn't want to be able to say that.  But I also didn't want to be dead.

Then I was planning on running outside since it was open, but I woke myself up. x(  It was all a bunch of tricks by this guy like on "Saw II" or something...