This is the only picture of myself I can stand... (It's also my favorite lol)

Cheesy Pose eh?

Just out feeding Sir Bailey...

I'm the 3rd one from the left... after a Verrry hard days' work helping a Katrina family in New Orleans.

Some Serious hair issues... Darn open windows lol.

Playing 360 with Allen & Corey.

Man was it Hot in there! ~ Me gaming again.

I'm an attention whore, or a sponge that's just starving for affection.
I'm 250 pounds of cuddle. *winces* But I'm working on it.
I love to play at playing the guitar (acoustic), and need to desperately start playing my Sax again.
I have PCOS (Polycystic ovarian syndrome) ~ I could grow full facial hair.
I have bad teeth. What you see above ~ reconstructed with enamel.
I get migraines ~ a lot.
I've got OCD (obsessive compulsive disorder) issues... even numbers are my friend, and I'm a mild "counter" & "checker."
I've played role-playing games like Shadowrun, TOON, and Dungeons & Dragons for nearly 13 years.
I Like my friends a little off color... in fact, I'd have a commune with all my friends if I could.
My average ADD relationship-attention-span is 2 years.
I'm honest.
I Love God, but highly dislike organized religion.
I've only drank diet sodas since 5th grade when I was diagnosed with "borderline diabetes."
I'm a listener, and I've forgotten how to talk.
Sometimes, I'm shallow. But God and I are working on that.
I'm a Lot to handle... I'm picky... and impulsive.
Here lately, I'm stingy with my feelings, and have been suicidal within the last 2 months.
I'm shy, and easily hurt (thus the holding on to my feelings for dear life).
Lately I've been pessimistic.
I Adore learning & reading.
I would Love to find that person who can hold me and be creative in ways to show love w/out being reliant on the words "I Love you."
I love "performing" but hate being "performed on."
I would cry if someone were to run their fingers through my hair for me or brush my hair. (It's the simple things that please me.)
I love teddy bears.
The only wish I ever make is for other people around me to be happy.
But I'm still pretty selfish.

My ideal expression of Love:
spending time preparing something for someone... a poem, a little note, a mixed CD, a drawing or doodle, ANYTHING that would let your special someone know that you spent Time on them. Masterpieces aren't a requirement, just Your Heart In Your Time.
(One of my favorite myspace comments was a picture of my cousin holding a happy birthday sign just for me that she'd written on a piece of paper ~ I still have the pic!)
Another gift that I've recently received is a "song," and why it was chosen.

What "I Love You" means to me...
I've overused the "Love You's" to the point of extinction. They don't mean anything to me anymore unless they've been spontaneously combusted out of my mouth... They're just something I can say to make people happy that I didn't avoid saying it.
To say I Love You and mean it...
Means that my soul aches when I'm not around you, that I Enjoy talking with you or being with you Right This Moment, and there's no other place I'd rather be. It means I'd do whatever is in my power to make you as happy as you're making me. It means that At This Moment, I couldn't imagine life without you.
I want to strike the words "I Love you" from my vocabulary... maybe I'll start saying je t'aime instead...